2026-04-16.1_humility, possibility, faith

the importance of letting things and people – including/especially myself – be(come) is becoming clearer to me in these days. more specifically, letting things and people be(come) in limited ways. the limited part is where humility comes in for me at this point in time. the idea and practice of stopping for a moment, going slow(er), realizing that certain processes aren’t helped by an overdose of (especially quantitative) activity. that i do not have all the tools or capacities in most given moments to do and be all that i would want to do and be. and acting like that isn’t the case actually moves me further from myself and m(y) community than if i consistently tried to move effectively with/in the limits of my current capacities. because the former is reaching for an impossible goal, one that is necessarily outside of me and m(y) relationships – because they form the very foundations of the possible – and the latter is centered on activity with/in that field of possibility. it’s often uncomfortable at this point, since it is very much not a habitual reaction of mine, but that should become easier with time.

but there is another important aspect to this discourse on humility and possibility: faith. because more than it not being a habit, the deeper source of discomfort is the question consistently lurking on the horizon: what if you’re wrong about where you’ve assumed your limits to be currently? this is a very important question that i take very seriously, evidenced by the fact that i have not stopped asking myself it incessantly in different ways for well over a year now. but it is not a question that – like i’ve been trying to do for a long time now – can be answered solely with thinking, reflection and attempts at future prediction. there will always be unresolved residue, sometimes more sometimes less, when trying to answer it using only your (critical) mental capacities in any given moment. and the best way to start processing this unresolved residue i’ve found until now is faith. faith that the uncertainty of not knowing the final answer is not a threat or something to fear and therefore try to eliminate. faith that that space of uncertainty is an absolutely necessary part of the field of possibility. and faith that guided by your core values, you will consistently fill it with what is/feels right.

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